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Friday, December 31, 2010

Dear 2010...

Me and my love on our wedding day (Feb 20, 2010)

Me and my love being commissioned to our work in England

Me and honey arriving in England to celebrate our first Easter. "Because He lives, I can face tomorrow..."

Getting settled in married life and getting involved in the community. Excited for what God has in store!

Started to feel unwell...and had to cut back from working. At the same time dealing with some very real hurts from the past. Thank you Father for allowing me to learn to forgive and that you are still teaching me this!

In the thicket of my illness...but such a sweet walk with the Father! He was always there.One day in particular as I was crying out to Him to help me feel better...I felt Him saying "You are my child and I love you". It was like a wave of peace had come over me....and it was what I needed to get through that day!


Bella entered our life...such a blessing from God! And yes...this is the kitty I would "talk to" on my loneliest days...she was a good listener! :)

Me and my love celebrating my remission. Now we can eagerly look forward to what God has in store for us. We feel so energized and on FIRE for Him!


Peaceful-happy to be coming out of what seems to have been a storm... and looking forward to 2011!

There is a song where the chorus goes like this: "Joy and Pain...Like Sunshine and Rain". If I had to only pick two words that described you 2010 it would have to be "Joy" and "Pain". In some ways I am sad that we are about to say goodbye but in other ways I couldn't be happier!

You have brought me incredible joy with the uniting of me and my love J. But you have also have brought your share of hard blows and intense pains. One in particular...even over an unexpected illness...has been the deepest pain I have ever felt. Sometimes I wonder if I will ever be able to make it and feel whole again...but then I think of the sovereignty of God.

God knew what you would look like for me 2010...and He never left me on my own. Reading journals I see His hand guiding me and softly speaking to me to let me know that He knew my hurts...and He was dealing with them. He also showed Himself true in leading us to the right paths. For that I am so thankful!

I must say that I have learned a lot...a lot about how things don't always seem fare and the fact that people will let you down, but also a lot about who I am in Christ...and a deeper rich walk with Him. I truly get what David is saying in Psalms 23...

The LORD is my shepherd, I lack nothing.
2 He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,


3 he refreshes my soul.
He guides me along the right paths
for his name’s sake.


4 Even though I walk
through the darkest valley,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.

5 You prepare a table before me

in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.


6 Surely your goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
forever.


Father may we continue to be surrendered to your will...and experience joy through the pain...looking up to you in the midst of it all for the comfort, and love, and direction only you can give. Thank you for 2010...and I am now ready to follow you into 2011! Amen.

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Reality Check for 2011...




Today I am staring out the window to a snowy wonderland. It has been snowing for the past few days...a rare occurrence this time of the year here in England. Each day the snow gets all sludgy with tire marks or shoe prints going through it. But through the night another layer drifts down from the sky...allowing me to wake to a beautiful new blanket of snow. Snow makes everything look so beautiful-and gives a "new" look to things.

I've been thinking a lot this week about having a new look...not so much with my hair or make up.. but more so with my "outlook". You see this week has been a week full of ups and downs...from meeting new people (which is always exciting to me as I am a people person) to having to deal with physical pain after a procedure.

As a matter of fact, this whole year has been full of ups and downs...from marrying the love of my life... to learning to forgive very deep hurts brought on by others...to struggling physically and emotionally through a difficult illness. So in many ways I can't wait for 2010 to be over and get a fresh new outlook in 2011. And let me just clue anyone out there that is wondering...my FAITH has never faltered and my walk has never been more sweeter than it has over this past year...to HIM ONLY be the glory!

I look forward to the next year with excited anticipation...but am also ready for whatever may come our way. According to the Bible we are not guaranteed a prospering life in our health, our work or anything else for that matter. Can God bless us abundantly in anyone or all of this things if He chooses...absolutely...but stating that He is obligated to do it as if He was a geinie in a bottle is not what the Bible teaches. Nor does it teach that if you don't receive good things...that your faith is not strong enough. In the words of Job..."the LORD gave, and the LORD hath taken away; blessed be the name of the LORD!" -Job 1:21

So what ARE we promised then? We are promised that one day...for those of us that know Jesus as our personal Lord and Savior ...we will live for ever with Him in a NEW HEAVEN and a NEW EARTH. (Rev 21:1-5). (btw-reality check: salvation is the greatest gift and if He gave me no other gift than that...I am blessed beyond measure!) We will one day be free from pain and God will wipe every tear from our eyes. Talk about a fresh start! I look forward to that day, but in the mean time, I will still choose to praise my Heavanly Father...no matter what may come...good or bad in 2011.

The question to ask yourself: are you obligating God to do good things for you in 2011 or are you asking God to do good things for you in 2011...prepared either way to PRAISE HIM? There is a big difference in the two questions.

If you are struggling and find yourself on the "obligating" side (and I have to admit that I sometimes have done this)...ask God to forgive you and give you a fresh "newness" in His word that HE....no one else...not me...not some man who is great with words on TV...but GOD HIMSELF...that He will speak the truth of His Word into your heart. Only then can you really feel grace and have a fresh new look or "outlook". Did I mention I love snow???? :)

Monday, October 18, 2010

Heading Towards the Finish Line!


"Hello Dr. (P), this is Mary O. We wanted to call you and let you know that I seem to be having a lot less symptoms lately. We know that our next appointment we are to discuss chemo treatments...but we wondered if we could just do one more blood test to see if my markers are in deed showing some improvement with my disease."

This was our desperate plea phone call to our specialist several week ago as we were about to face what seemed to be inevitable...months of chemo. We had been praying along with so many others that I would get better and not have to start the chemo treatments.

GOD ANSWERED PRAYERS!

Well I'll just come out and say it: I'm in REMISSION!!!!!!!

Now is there anybody out there that is doing a little jig with me right now? Yep, after 7 long months...my doctors have informed me that they believe I am getting better. If all goes well I should be off all medications and showing no symptoms (total remission)...by the end of the year. I am already feeling much better and getting more strength and energy every single day.

The day we were to go to the specialist and discuss treatment options...we instead heard "Mrs. Oldenkamp...we believe you are heading towards remission. Your blood work shows remarkable improvement of your disease. So therefore, not only do we recommend no new treatments for your disease at this time...we also recommend that you start coming off all of your current medications."

Wow...we couldn't believe it. And as a matter of fact...we were a little shell shocked when we left the office. Instead of jumping up and down...we equate it to what it must feel like being a prisoner of war. For so long we were "locked up and in the prison" of my disease and finally we were being "set free". So we walked out of that room with a little apprehension of "is this for real...are we really free?" This lasted for a few weeks...but every day as I began to show improvement and from the loving nudge of our Father...our fears fell away...and now we are doing the happy dance!!!

So what is next? If I am able to continue lowering my dosages of medications and my blood work and symptoms keep improving...I should...LORD willing...be in complete remission by the end of the year. What a wonderful Christmas gift!

We do have a little bit of not so good news...but hey wanted to share the really good news first. There are a few aftermaths with the Lupus...the lining around the retina of right eye was affected. They are looking to possibly do a minor operation with a laser to sort of "weld" the lining back to normal to prevent the retina from detaching.

So getting back to the good news...this couldn't have come at a better time as this is National Lupus Awareness Month here in the UK. The tag line with Lupus is "Everyone knows someone who has it." What used to seem a quite rare and deadly disease has now become much more prevalent...but also many advances have been made to give hope that a cure is on its way!

There is currently no cure for Lupus and the main stream of medications available to treat are very harsh. RIGHT NOW there is a new medication called Benlysta that is currently being reviewed by the FDA in the States which looks to be the first medication specifically for Lupus that has been developed in over 50 years! If it is approved...it will be available the beginning of 2011!

Here is a personal photo journal of my journey with Lupus. I would not normally post such pictures of myself, but I think it is important for people to realize the devastation of the disease.

Just shortly after being diagnosed-I was having severe joint pains and could sleep for 14 hours per day!

Then came the lovely swollen lips that would appear on random occasions, along with the famous butterfly rash across my cheeks and nose...a classic sign of Lupus.


The hives were more than I could bare at times...I would literally lay in the tub soaking in baking soda and just crying as I tried not to scratch! My hair also began to fall out rapidly.

Here there was a severe adverse reaction to a medication. J and I spent so much time in and out of hospitals.

This was definitely my low point. My kidneys were starting to take a hit and we were being informed that chemo was the only option. We were also told at this point that children in the future would most likely NOT be possible if I were to go on the chemo. But we both just kept crying out to God for help!

What can YOU do to help spread the news about Lupus? Please follow the links to these two videos from St. Thomas Trust here in the UK. It will explain what Lupus is and share a story of a woman trying to start a family with the disease (something very near and dear to my heart).

PLEASE WATCH!

Here is the video telling what Lupus is:

Here is the video of a woman having lupus and wanting to start a family:


Please continue to pray over us:
  • Pray that I will continue to show improvement
  • Pray that my energy will increase
  • Pray for the "aftermaths" that are showing up (my right eye)-that if surgery is the solution that all will go smooth
  • Pray for J and I as we have been informed to attempt to "get in the best shape as possible" while I am in remission to make my body stronger if/when the next flare comes. (the average remission time is around 3-4 years).
  • Pray for J and I, and OM Leaders to make decisions in regards to what I will be doing in the ministry-what capacity I will be able to maintain. (Lord willing shooting for January 2011 to start back).
We want to THANK YOU for all of your prayers, letters, emails, FB messages...it was overwhelming to know how many people have been lifting us up in prayer! You have blessed us so much!

We look forward to telling you more exciting news in the near future...Lord willing! Keep checking back here and at our website (www.voicebehindyou.com) for blog and video updates. Also, if you live in the Atlanta area and would are interested in upcoming prayer meetings please respond to this update.

We love you all deeply and are so thankful that YOU are in our lives!!!

Sunday, October 3, 2010

Getting Restored in the Valley...


Most of us would say that "the view from the top is great"! You can see so much more...all the valleys below...and you feel great! You could stay there all day long. But what happens when you start your decent into the valley? Does your attitude seem to change for the worse? And is the view really better on the mountain top than down in the valley?



When we are in the valley...although we can only see what is in front of us...we can actually see things in so much more detail than we could looking down from the mountain...much more clarity if you will. What once looked like little spots...now come into full view as a beautiful flower patch or even cute wooly sheep!



The valley forces you to keep "looking up" to see where you are going. If you only look down you could eventually hurt yourself by running into a wall or falling into a lake. Sure there may be some obstacles to face once you are in the valley...some rock walls you must climb and you may injure yourself on some bob wire along your journey, but in the end...it leads to beautiful paths. The valley allows you to see things in detail that you most likely wouldn't have seen on the mountain top...it brings "clarity and direction...which can lead to the ultimate...RESTORATION.



You very well may have just come down from a mountain top only to be facing your own valley right now...valleys of loneliness, discouragement...unexpected health issues...circumstances at work. Are you moaning and groaning and wishing you were back on that mountain? Did you know that our Heavenly Father is waiting to "restore us in that valley"?

The question to ask yourself is "what direction am I looking"? Are you looking down...grumbling the entire way? If so...be careful...you might fall into that lake pretty soon...and that could be very unpleasant...especially with winter coming! Look up...see your surroundings and ask your Father to show you beauty along your path...the fine details...and let Him restore your soul. You will be amazed by what all you will see!

You restore my soul. You guide me in the path of righteousness for your name’s sake. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me. Psalm 23:3-4

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

He Loves Me...He Loves Me Not...God's Real Promises...



"He Loves Me...He loves me not"...I am sure at one point in our teenage lives we have all picked the petals of a flower until the last one was left...telling our fate of where our recent crush stood with us. If the one left was "he loves me not"...we would be so devastated...and if you were like me...you would just throw that flower out and begin again with a new one! :)

But I wonder how many of us do this same thing with God...maybe you get that He loves you...but maybe some of you...like me struggle with God actually coming through on His promises. You have faith but in the bottom of your heart you have that flower...just a picking away and saying "He will do this...He won't do this". Ladies...if God gives you a promise...you can take it to the bank! All we are called to do is TRUST in Him...his Word...and His promises He gives us through His Word.

To be quite honest...I was almost to the point of started to doubt one particular promise God had given me through scripture with my recent illness. It had been a long and difficult road and the constant pain and struggles were getting the best of me. But God in His mercy didn't let me go flower picking all too soon...and stepped in just in the nick of time.

Just recently I was asked by my friend Shelley Hendrix to guest write a devotion for her ministry's blog site. It was a total honor and little did I know how it would bless my socks off.

When I wrote the devotion...I had no idea when it would be published. The devotion was on how God has so sweetly spoken promises to me over the course of my illness...one of which I felt the Lord would "restore" my health...maybe not completely heal...but at least I knew that better days were coming!

This past Monday I was scheduled to see my specialist about possible future treatments of chemo...as up until that point I had not been improving as they had hoped. When I arrived to that appointment...I had been feeling somewhat better the past few days...but did not know the official results of my tests. Needless to say...God's promise came through in a very big way...when the Doctor told me that my test show improvement...meaning that I did not have to start the chemo treatment!!!

As we drove home I was checking my email and saw that my devotion had been published that morning...and began to tear up. On the very same day that I was telling people about His promises...God decided to SHOW me His promise to me did come true! He is restoring my health...I am getting better! So if God tells you something...get ready...because it is going to happen. You may not know when...or exactly how...but it will come to be! It is all about TRUST people!

Okay...well...have a read (see link below)...I hope you enjoy it and I would LOVE to hear from you all on how God has revealed His promises to you! Love to you all!

http://www.shelleyhendrix.org/2010/09/blog-party-continues-with-shout-shout.html

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Latest Video MoJo Update


Hello everyone...hope you are doing well...below you will find a link to our latest video update! We want to take a moment and DEEPLY THANK YOU for your prayers...they are so preciously received!!! We would love to hear from you and how we can pray for you too...so please respond!!!


Me and my love on a random adventure day of driving around the Scottish Highlands!


J in front of our Church (Hebron Evangelical Church). We will be leading 2 Bible studies this coming Fall and are so excited to share what God has put on our hearts!


Love how people keep their "garden" here in the UK...which could mean just the front of the house. Beautiful!

Me at the local Market Day...where they sell everything from food to plants to accessories. So cool and very affordable!

My husband being funny-some of the English doors are just a bit too short for my tall Dutchie!!


Our cat Bella...or should I say dog? She plays fetch...hides things...digs them back up...and comes to you when you call her. I've never seen a cat like that before...she is such a blessing!

Thursday, July 29, 2010

LUPUS 101



Hello precious friends and family and greetings from the UK! J and I have really adjusted to life here...and...

We have a new family member...meet Bella! She literally was a blessing from the Lord. We were praying for a pet if He wanted us to have one...but didn't want to go out and look for one. She literally showed up on our doorstep...all alone and very hungry. Needless to say we took her in and after final approval from our landlord...she is all ours! And getting a big tummy!!! :)

Now...this update is more of a recap to some...but also the first time many of you may be reading about my illness... SLE LUPUS. After being diagnosed I have had so many people come to me who have similar illnesses and it has been a blessing to minister to them! I am learning so much from the Lord...and want to share that and the knowledge of what I am also learning "medically" with others. My heart is to educate others and make them aware of this disease. So here we go... (most information below found via web: www.dolanarthritis.com


So what is SLE Lupus?

(Lupus – Systemic Lupus Erythematosus)

Systemic lupus erythematosus (also called SLE or lupus) is a chronic inflammatory disease that can affect the skin, joints, kidneys, lungs, nervous system, and/or other organs of the body. The most common symptoms include skin rashes and arthritis, often accompanied by fatigue and fever. The clinical course of SLE varies from mild to severe, and typically involves alternating periods of remission and relapse. The picture above shows the various ways Lupus affects the body.

For me my first tale tale signs were the rash across my face...extreme fatigue...hives...and extreme muscle and joint aches...to the point I could not lift myself out of bed. I also began to lose my hair.

They symbol for Lupus is the butterfly...which resembles the famous "butterfly rash" or "Malar rash" that is usually the first tell tell sign of someone with the disease.
Probably the most famous person with Lupus is Seal...where it is not normal for the rash to scar...his unfortunately did.

Here is a picture showing the first signs of my malar rash. Often I would have swollen lips as well.

What Causes Lupus?

SLE is an autoimmune disorder which develops when the body’s own immune system, which normally protects against cancers and invading infections, begins to attack the patient’s own tissues (known medically as a “loss of self-tolerance”). This occurs first through the production of “auto-antibodies” (antibodies are immune system cells that attack foreign microbes; auto-antibodies attack a person’s own cells). As the attack continues, other immune system cells join the fight. This leads to inflammation, blood vessel abnormalities (vasculitis) and deposition of immune system cells in organs which causes tissue damage.

Lupus affects 10 times as many women as men.

Treatment depends on the type and severity of symptoms you experience.

For me the treatment started with a high dose of steroids. The side effects are usually very unpleasant...especially for women as they almost certainly will make you gain weight...mostly water weight. You will notice how swollen my face had become. This is effect of the steroid is called "Moon Face"...nice huh?

While there is no cure for Lupus...there are many maintenance medications available. The idea is that they will sustain your body so that it will not flare in overdrive and affect major organs. The hope is to try to get the patient's body calm and into remission.

Above is an unfortunate result of trial and error of the medication. Here Hydroxychloroquine was administered...which led to a major drug reaction.


The Lupus Foundation of America (LFA) estimates between 1.5 – 2 million Americans have a form of lupus, but the actual number may be higher. More than 90 percent of people with lupus are women. Symptoms and diagnosis occur most often when women are in their child-bearing years, between the ages of 15 and 45.


Time for a laugh...I realize this is a heavy topic...so I thought this would releive some tension. I LOVE this quote from HOUSE. You have to watch the show to understand...but it is funny. I have a t-shirt that says "Finally it was lupus!"


One of the biggest struggles I find that people with chronic illnesses face is how other people relate to them. Some of them pitty them...most sincerely care and want to help...but some avoid you all together simply because they do not know what to say. In dealing with that subject...there are some you WISH would avoid you because of what they say...not meaning to... but usually saying something very hurtful. So I thought I would list some things NOT to say to someone with a chronic illness...some from my own experience...

10: I've seen all the diet cokes you drink...you should stop that!

Please don't judge...remember for Lupus in particular there is no known cause.

9: My cousin has what you have and she was cured by...

Please know that each patient is different. For us...we believe that God has surrounded us with wonderful Doctors who are so tender towards us...and that He will give them the wisdom to be able to help me to the best of their ability.

8: I've heard about this miracle natural herb...

Been there...done that...

7: I've been doing some research on your "lupy"

First of all...if you don't even know how to pronounce it...you probably should not be giving any advice... :)

6: We believe that your disease is caused by stress...temporary...and that you need to get professional counseling for the stress in your life.

Big NO NO. Again...no known cause for Lupus as with many chronic illnesses...it is definitely NOT temporary but unfortunately life long...and stating that someone needs professional help is a slap in the face and could make a person with a very life- threatening disease think it is all in their head and not go and seek the medical attention they should.

5. If you would just do this or that it will get your mind off of it.

Please stop bringing things for us to do...it just makes us feel bad when we are unable to do it! If we want something we will ask...promise! :)

4. If you did more physical exercise...

Stop...most of the time people with chronic illness have enough of a time just getting out of bed.

3. If you had more faith...you would be healed...because Jesus has already overcome disease at the cross.

Yes...He has overcome death...disease..it all at the cross...but in our sin fallen world...here on earth...there is death and disease. But Hallelujah...because I put my faith in Him...this world is not my home and one day I will be in Heaven with him...in a new and perfect body. Until then...I will carry whatever cross he bestows on me...even pain and suffering...because the Bible tells us that will happen in this life here on earth.

For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

Beloved, do not be surprised at the fiery trial when it comes upon you to test you, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice insofar as you share Christ's sufferings, that you may also rejoice and be glad when his glory is revealed. If you are insulted for the name of Christ, you are blessed, because the Spirit of glory and of God rests upon you.

Yet if anyone suffers as a Christian, let him not be ashamed, but let him glorify God in that name.

2: Where are you in your walk with the Lord?
Ummmm...don't go there...unless God tells you a direct word to confront someone. Please make sure you've had your quite time...don't make me remind you of the story of Job and his friends. Love you all though! :)

1: But you look good!

Okay this is the number one thing I get...especially that with Lupus...you don't always have the hives or rashes...they come and go. Now I found this on a website...but I had to laugh because I could so relate to someone's answer...well probably something they wanted to say out loud but instead they were screaming it in their head while putting on the prettiest grin you ever did see!

Here is their response:

THANKS! It took me 3 hours to get out of bed, 1 hour soaking in a hot bath, 3 pills, 2 hours waiting for the medication to take effect, 2 hours doing my hair and make-up to cover up the physical effects of getting on average 2-3 hours of sleep a night, and then 2 more pills before I left the house…. but THANKS for letting me know how good I look! I guess all my hard work today paid off!)


But...I will say that my diet change has seemed to help. I know that it can't hurt to eat healthy anyway! So I am just starting to research and learn just how to do that. Here are some of my "favorite things". For lupus...omega 3 is vital for healthy joints and heart...both of which are affected. So I use flaxseed and a product called Food Doctor seeds...that I sprinkle at least once per day into either my porridge, smoothie...or on top of salads. I also have been recommend by my specialists to take high doses of calcium (steroids suck calcium out of the bones) and vitamin D (since I cannot go into the sun-with Lupus...sunlight flares up symptoms).

I also have tried to go more organic and non processed. I will admit it limits you to some foods as well as is much more pricer. But we are still learning...so more updates to come on this. I love to flavor my food with organic soy sauce. I also replaced all artificial sweetener and regular sugar with honey...and haven't skipped a beat. I also don't eat enough raw fruits so I get my 5 a day in by drinking smoothies I make or a great brand I found at Tesco (a UK store)-non processed. I also have started to drink Goat's milk and use Goat's butter...I can't tell the difference!!! Anything from a cow will most likely have steroids or other medicine...which guess what...will go straight into your body when you consume them. We also cook with only extra virgin olive oil...taste yummy and good for you!

Well thanks for stopping by...I hope to have more information via this blogsite soon! But I would be ad mist if I did not say the ONLY thing that gets me through this terrible disease is the fact that my wonderful Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ gives me strength to get through it all!! He is the reason I live and breath...and the hope I have in a life after this one!